Luis, thank you for the encouragement. I will do my best to answer your questions.
My point is – could not the light be much farther away and as such much higher in the sky ?
For sure, 100% it is all about perspective. The silo itself if about 300 ft. from the house, maybe even less. I would venture to say it is about 30-40 ft tall, my estimation on the degree of the horizon is pretty darn close. The size however I would think was more of a smaller scout ship, the handling was just so out of this world, I can not help but think it was a small.
As far as being further away and higher in the sky, I would say if it was a smaller ship, it could not have been that far away. When it parked itself much closer to the farm and began radiating the golden light (did this radiation create the temp change and was I subject to it?), it appeared as if it was a very predominant star in the sky while all the others were just barely visible through the overcast. However if anyone was actually looking at it, they would have realized it was not a star and was in our atmosphere, most likely within thousands of feet, if that.
My point is – Why do you feel it is “You” that was in question ? I mean, 300 feet away from that same silo (in any other direction) could not another guy be seeing the exact same things you were seeing and it all being directed at Him, while you just happened to be the unintentional onlooker ?
Two things make it obvious it was directed at me. First, I have a history of ufo encounters dating back to childhood.
Second, when I initially saw the craft, it appeared as a plane flying by. I watched it for a few seconds when it started doing the humming bird routine. I decided to get dressed to go out and investigate, prior to which I needed to sit down in the bathroom. I was watching the craft from my bathroom so it was natural to check in on it again prior to me going outside. When I checked it out, it was in the same spot as when I first saw it as a plane only this time it appeared as if a star. As I was watching it for a few seconds, it began again with the hummingbird routine.
It is at this point I sat down and did my business with an open view of the craft. I then went outside only to be greeted by a terrible cold, one I have not felt in some time. I could not investigate, I would have froze so I came back inside. Once I warmed up, I sent a mental message to the craft that if it was warmer, I would have liked to come for a visit. A while later, I decided to see if it was still there so I went outside again. This is when it had taken up position much closer to the farm and was appearing as a very bright radiant golden star. It was at this point that I noticed the temperature had changed drastically, I bet I would not even have needed my jacket.
Since the craft responded to my statement about how cold it was by somehow increasing the temperature (because it was radiating, sort of like a little sun?) and it did the humming bird routine from either looking like an airplane or a star not once or twice but three times during the experience, I feel like it is safe to say they were interacting with me and not some other experiencer that just happens to live close by.
My point is – Presented with one in a lifetime opportunity, and about something which one has dwelled upon for years, does one rationalize its context inside ambient temperature or a need to answer a call of Nature ? I mean, why ?
Well, I can not say this is really once in a lifetime. It is also about having as much control over a situation that in the past, I felt very helpless in. The cold was un naturally cold, however I have not looked up Balto. MD and So. PA temperatures for 2am wed morning. Perhaps it was ridiculously low temps outside, all I know was it took me a good ten min just to stop shivering.
The craft at this point was still off in the distance, I was going to have to cover a good portion of the farm in hopes that it might meet me on the outskirts. However with how fast I got cold, I decided against all of it. Too much risk all around, I do not know what their intentions are with me. In the past, I have been dropped back into bed from 3 or 4 feet after an abduction. I crashed into the bed which made me jump right back out where I then looked immediately out the side window to see a craft with multi colored lights.
Considering the latter point, the two craft are similar based on the multi colored lights, especially red and blue. No need to be discreet and invisible, just dazzle the prey with bright and shiny colors. To this day, it makes sense to me that they use these bright lights because you can not see past the light.
The only reason I know I have been dealing with saucer type craft is because I saw two in my rear view mirror during my first encounter of 2009. There were also dreams of them and one in my regression session that also produced a entity/being at the foot of my bed. This makes me consider this craft potentially a saucer thereby causing me concern.
All this being said, I took those actions again because I need to find control points even if just to save myself the embarrassment of shitting myself while trying to deal with the increased energy fields or becoming a popsicle because they dumped my somewhere, sometime. The bigger picture here warrants caution and I can not take enough of it.
This is why I am asking myself am I doing the right thing by considering physical conscious contact. Have I already made terrible mistakes in the past and this potentially more of the same? What is the agenda? How does one know what is real anymore?
I hope my intuition and discernment are up to whatever challenge presented because they will be all I have in my bag of tricks.